Dear God
Or whoever you are, if you are listening and seeing from wherever you are…
You know I am struggling and i need help…
You know I need the strength:
To carry on …
To hold on .. or maybe let go..
To believe in you..
To believe life is beautiful..
To know I am strong..
To know this misery would end …
To know I will be happy Again…
You know since i realised what god is which was only very recently ..
I stopped asking you for anything for my life ..
I always talked to you as if you know what i would need, i trusted you, but that doesn’t mean that you would just give me tears… endless ones, where i have no one to wipe them apart from my self because god I am tired….
I am tired and even though i want to hold on I am struggling …
I know many would say that you are probably giving me all this because you have a plan for me and maybe you do! .. and believe me I want to trust you but its shaking….
Its scary …
You know its dark where i am – the girl who used to spread lightness!
I am today again in the place where i did not wanted to ever return…
I promised myself and you, that i wont be this low… But I am struggling.
Dear God
I want to trust you…
I want to believe you are there…
You know I don’t ask for anything but to guide me and give me strength…
You know for big decisions when i am very confused in my life I surrender to you … then why is my belief shaking today yet again ….
Dear God before i go to bed tonight please take care of my and give me that strength.
That courage ….
That belief …
That smile…
That power to believe in just you and no one else ..
Dear God I trust you … when i have no one i hope I am able to wipe my tears and don’t loose hope while i am doing so..
Thank for listening God …
Thank you